Poetry

Sit With My Fucking Soul

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/relaxation-sitting-reflection-statue-46177/ I’m sitting with my fucking soul I’m listening intently what I have to say I’m praying, praying for something I yet do not know I’m living in the unknown, the not knowing is enough to drive me mad It tingles underneath my skin I want to surrender Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

An Honorable Meeting

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/art-black-and-white-close-up-horse-415983/ As this day comes to a close I’m sitting with something Something that truly is inside me so I just want to sit with it Be with it, no fuss Just me and my presence Slowly finding our way to each other We bow to greet Honoring Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Heartfelt Desire

https://www.pexels.com/photo/mountain-surrounded-by-trees-with-snows-691569/ A yearning for coming together Calling, creeping under the surface The not knowing Is what kept it growing Coming into my own sovereign Means foraging in the depths of my being It involves clear seeing And deep feeling Heartfelt commitment To myself and others That will carry the torch Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Home

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astrology-astronomy-dark-night-376706/ Take a look closely now Or better yet, a silent bow To Your own life Carved out with the knife Over a long period of time The amount of sadness that road holds Is only surpassed by the joy when arriving home What’s so painfully obvious Is Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Raspberry Smoothies and Wine

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/rock-formation-with-grassfield-background-722016/ Life has a strange sense of paradox Written into its very core Pouring out of pure clarity in the midst of insanity Pain is a stepping stone To whatever follows next Is probably for the best Now is the time When true endings are mine Raspberry smoothies and Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Articles

Attention and Wanting to be Seen

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/person-holding-magnifying-glass-712786/ I have a confession to make. I want attention. A huge part of that desire or want is the simple equation attention = money. Or at least that’s how to perceive it. If You have other people’s attention it’s easier to make money. Wanting attention itself is not Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Dance of Life

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/snow-capped-mountain-under-cloudy-sky-711177/ The death of a moment can break Your heart It can remind You all that was And it’s gone Life on this planet can seem cruel With all the little deaths happening all at once Only when we have time to reflect upon them We can see life Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Podcast

Knowing More

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/backlit-beautiful-clouds-color-392091/ My life for the last five years has been constant death with small windows of life in between deaths. This has been at the same time one of the most hardest and most beautiful times of my life. Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/backlit-beautiful-clouds-color-392091/ I’ve lost many people, they have Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Articles

Simple Things – A Guide to Appreciating The Annoying Things in Life

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/nature-forest-trees-park-38136/ Simple things I bitch about but would be sad if they weren’t in my life. A guide for appreciating the so called annoying things in life. My partners breath in the morning before brushing teeth – My partner who I love dearly would be gone from my Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Keep Going

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astronomy-beautiful-clouds-constellation-355465/ What troubles Your soul? The belonging Of which You have known Growing Although not complete Is a journey Towards discovery, forever Incomplete Dear God Look into my eyes and see The strength and perseverance I am a good boy, You must see Torn still by the temptress Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago