Poetry

Fear

Image source: http://www.ambwallpapers.com/mountains-hd-wallpapers/ I feel fear now The metallic feel of the sensation grabbed me by the throat I’m helpless with it I’m like a kid at a candy store with no money to buy candy It hurts The weight in my arms has doubled They are like wooden thumps, Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Shadows

Image source: Private collection Can You see the shadows? Can You feel them? Can You hear them? What do they say? Is it hurt they’re expressing? Wonderful Now You see them Now You feel them They are loud! They’re intent isn’t malevolent Oh no Quite the opposite They sing songs Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Beauty

Image source: View from the office building I work at during a snowstorm. And suddenly You can see the beauty of it all A guy on the corner speaking french Fuck I love french! The curves of a woman passing by Her coy smile The softness The sensuality of her Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

All Life Is Death

Image source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSbtCX-uDEs A grueling concept But when You sit with it long enough A certain ease arises The fighting stops You are still afraid of death But You are clear about the certainty of it I’m not asking You to be okay with it Just sit with it Toy Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Dark And Wild Feminine

Image source: Day after the full moon on 25th of December 2015. Lääne-Virumaa, My families country home. At first I stood My ground She made a grueling sound, like a hound I remembered to stand strong and tall But it did not prepare me for the fall Call after call Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

A Story About A Little Boy

Image source: Private collection Let Me tell You a story about a little boy You can say that he was somewhat coy He had blonde hair and love was the language he spoke But life is weird in a way, he could not cope There were feelings he did not Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Seeker

His everywhere And nowhere Like lightning His alone And together Like berries He wants to be seen And be invisible He can’t be touched Yet he is penetrated by everything He is a mystery And an open book Look To tell You the truth There’s not much You can do Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Longing

It’s burning Burning inside You You are not sure if it’s You Maybe it’s someone else Seeds that were planted a long time ago Sprouting from the depths of Your being Simmering beneath the surface You want to fight it You want to escape it Run from it Almost paralyzed Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

There Are No Meadows Here

Image source: http://www.hdwallpapers.im/springtime_in_the_meadows-wallpaper.html There are no meadows here There is no nobility here Only longing Longing for those things Longing for the dawn to replace the darkness Longing for desire to replace the numbness They are on the other side They are not laughing They are not waiting Lovingly present, Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

What if

Image source: Winter sunset in Estonia, I can almost feel the heaviness of it all. What if Everything we ever said to each other was a lie What if Everything we ever said to each other was a lie What if Everything we said made us cry This doesn’t apply Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago