Poetry

Losses

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/beach-clouds-dawn-dusk-262325/ Every loss affects us Big or small Material of physical The time it takes to move on Differs from moment to moment When the waves come crashing on to the shore All You can do is see what they have in store The flow of them will Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Stillness Within Madness

Image source: Photo by Sebastian Voortman from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/action-adventure-aerial-aerial-shot-312105/ Patience is key You see and I see The mind comes in a hurry That’s when I need to stay sturdy Just sitting seems fitting Being and waiting This all looks like an appropriate setting If only I wasn’t so damn Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Tailor Made

Image source: Photo by Fancycrave from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/accessory-bobbin-close-up-clothing-355148/ Remembering the feelings I wanted to have, sad But with faith I stand here I’ve failed, been made Staged a comeback Without having the faintest idea I’m already part of a tale That’s bigger than me It is me, see I’ve been Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Everything That Used to Make Me Feel Alive Makes Me Feel Dead Inside

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/adult-alcohol-bar-bartender-274192/ Everything that used to make me feel alive Now makes me feel dead inside And then I realized It didn’t actually make me feel alive Just amplified the emptiness I felt inside It made me feel more of what was already there With no one to share, Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Heartfelt Desire

https://www.pexels.com/photo/mountain-surrounded-by-trees-with-snows-691569/ A yearning for coming together Calling, creeping under the surface The not knowing Is what kept it growing Coming into my own sovereign Means foraging in the depths of my being It involves clear seeing And deep feeling Heartfelt commitment To myself and others That will carry the torch Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Home

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astrology-astronomy-dark-night-376706/ Take a look closely now Or better yet, a silent bow To Your own life Carved out with the knife Over a long period of time The amount of sadness that road holds Is only surpassed by the joy when arriving home What’s so painfully obvious Is Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Articles

Attention and Wanting to be Seen

Image source:¬†https://www.pexels.com/photo/person-holding-magnifying-glass-712786/ I have a confession to make. I want attention. A huge part of that desire or want is the simple equation attention = money. Or at least that’s how to perceive it. If You have other people’s attention it’s easier to make money. Wanting attention itself is not Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Dance of Life

Image source:¬†https://www.pexels.com/photo/snow-capped-mountain-under-cloudy-sky-711177/ The death of a moment can break Your heart It can remind You all that was And it’s gone Life on this planet can seem cruel With all the little deaths happening all at once Only when we have time to reflect upon them We can see life Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Podcast

Knowing More

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/backlit-beautiful-clouds-color-392091/ My life for the last five years has been constant death with small windows of life in between deaths. This has been at the same time one of the most hardest and most beautiful times of my life. Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/backlit-beautiful-clouds-color-392091/ I’ve lost many people, they have Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Keep Going

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astronomy-beautiful-clouds-constellation-355465/ What troubles Your soul? The belonging Of which You have known Growing Although not complete Is a journey Towards discovery, forever Incomplete Dear God Look into my eyes and see The strength and perseverance I am a good boy, You must see Torn still by the temptress Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago