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My heart is swollen
From all the beating it has taken
It’s been open and closed
Love has awaken it and fear has sealed it
It has been conditional so far
What happens on the outside
Affects the inside of me
As I’m learning this is not the way to go
Oh no
Can I trust once more?
Or even many, many times over again?
I’m giving it My all
On this journey filled with doubt and fear
Rejection and sadness
Loneliness and emptiness
I’m putting one foot in front of the other
This is shaky ground
My mind wants to stop
But I can’t anymore
I want to do this
I want to love
I want to live
I want to trust
Through all the bullshit
There’s a whole ton of it
So it is
I pick up the pieces once more
With wobbly hands
Venture into the unknown
Cause My heart is beating on it’s own
With love,
Ian Altosaar