Whole

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I’m fucking scared
Scared to rip my chest open
And show my heart
I’m scared of it being stomped all over
I still have that in me
Looking at the road I’ve taken
Things forsaken, thinking I was less then
There’s still some simmering at the bottom
I’m okay, I’m okay with not being okay
Okay with being sad, I’m letting myself be sad
Bringing it on the table, looking
For stable ground within me
In my core, in the warmth of the flames that reside within my soul
It feels like a small intimate camp fire
Where there’s room for everyone
Love and care, security and strength
That is what I hold until I grow whole
And finally let it all flow
I just hope, You are there to catch me and witness it unfold

Ian Altosaar

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