The Seeker

His everywhere And nowhere Like lightning His alone And together Like berries He wants to be seen And be invisible He can’t be touched Yet he is penetrated by everything He is a mystery And an open book Look To tell You the truth There’s not much You can do In full bloom Behold the … Read more

The Longing

It’s burning Burning inside You You are not sure if it’s You Maybe it’s someone else Seeds that were planted a long time ago Sprouting from the depths of Your being Simmering beneath the surface You want to fight it You want to escape it Run from it Almost paralyzed It’s unbearable You want to … Read more

There Are No Meadows Here

Image source: There are no meadows here There is no nobility here Only longing Longing for those things Longing for the dawn to replace the darkness Longing for desire to replace the numbness They are on the other side They are not laughing They are not waiting Lovingly present, for Your entrance I gaze … Read more

What if

Image source: Winter sunset in Estonia, I can almost feel the heaviness of it all. What if Everything we ever said to each other was a lie What if Everything we ever said to each other was a lie What if Everything we said made us cry This doesn’t apply Sigh Watching life go by … Read more


Some days You don’t have the words to express Yourself. Kid Cudi to the rescue: [youtube] <3 Ian   It’s okay to be exactly where You are in this moment.

To My Woman

Image source: To My Woman, where ever and whoever You might be… I want to fill You up with My sex I want to fill You up with desire I want to see You drip I want to make You beg for it I want to make You wait for it, until You can’t … Read more

My Desire

Image source: I’m sitting by the fireplace at my families country home. Journaling. Journaling about a specific topic this time. My desire. My desire with women and life in general. When I was first introduced to this exercise the first thing that came up was “I don’t know”. Mostly directed towards my desire with … Read more

The burning of the yearning

Image source: Have You ever felt yearning for someone or something? I have. It feels like something outside of You is pulling You towards that thing/person/situation and at the same time You really don’t have a chance to get it. Lot of stories come up. Why is this like this, it’s supposed to be … Read more


Felt a glow in my heart after watching this. [youtube] Video by Shea Glover. Her channel: <3

Sitting here

Image source: Kalamaja beach, taken couple of months back during sunset. I’m just sitting here, pondering what to write about. I’m feeling almost okay today or more upbeat than usual. If You’re feeling a bit down then the creative juices start flowing and everything is more dramatic. Obviously it’s like that when You’re upbeat and … Read more