Poetry

Morning

Image source: https://hdwallpapers.cat/winter_morning_light_sunlight_snow_nature_hd-wallpaper-1279078/ I was awake but I could sense You were asleep You had Your back turned towards me I could hear You breathing, it was quiet I can still remember Your smell It was sweet and soft, creamy Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Fear

Image source: http://www.ambwallpapers.com/mountains-hd-wallpapers/ I feel fear now The metallic feel of the sensation grabbed me by the throat I’m helpless with it I’m like a kid at a candy store with no money to buy candy It hurts The weight Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Shadows

Image source: Private collection Can You see the shadows? Can You feel them? Can You hear them? What do they say? Is it hurt they’re expressing? Wonderful Now You see them Now You feel them They are loud! They’re intent Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Blog

Connection

Image source: This is me. With and without My bullshit.   As I’m discovering a deeper connection with Myself it’s becoming clearer to me that I madly yearn for connection. Deep soul connection. The yearning is almost unbearable. It’s like Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Beauty

Image source: View from the office building I work at during a snowstorm. And suddenly You can see the beauty of it all A guy on the corner speaking french Fuck I love french! The curves of a woman passing Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

All Life Is Death

Image source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSbtCX-uDEs A grueling concept But when You sit with it long enough A certain ease arises The fighting stops You are still afraid of death But You are clear about the certainty of it I’m not asking You Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Dark And Wild Feminine

Image source: Day after the full moon on 25th of December 2015. Lääne-Virumaa, My families country home. At first I stood My ground She made a grueling sound, like a hound I remembered to stand strong and tall But it Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

A Story About A Little Boy

Image source: Private collection Let Me tell You a story about a little boy You can say that he was somewhat coy He had blonde hair and love was the language he spoke But life is weird in a way, Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Seeker

His everywhere And nowhere Like lightning His alone And together Like berries He wants to be seen And be invisible He can’t be touched Yet he is penetrated by everything He is a mystery And an open book Look To Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Longing

It’s burning Burning inside You You are not sure if it’s You Maybe it’s someone else Seeds that were planted a long time ago Sprouting from the depths of Your being Simmering beneath the surface You want to fight it Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago