Consider Yourself Lucky

The fear of losing who I once was Completely baffles my mind The hurt caused by the opinions of people I once considered friends Still roams and looms in my consciousness Although I’ve experienced what it truly means to love myself The doubts and the emptiness still remains If only once in a while It’s … Read more

I Will Do My Best

Image source: Photo by GEORGE ALEXANDRU NOVAC on Unsplash Working towards togetherness When the laws in place say we should be individual Striving to new visions While the old ones are being provisioned What can one do? One man can go far With help from others Look at ourselves Can we change? So that we move towards growth, kindness, … Read more

The Road To Recovery

As darkness tightens it’s grip It does seem only the tip Of the iceberg The road to recovery Seems too smothering I’m bothered by the sheer magnitude of it all If I must I just Sit at the cusp Ian Altosaar

Being In Uncertainty

Being in uncertainty With not knowing Is like a continuous haze A mist that keeps on going People speak and I listen But it’s gone a second later Because my only concern is how can I find some certainty once more Some safety Some grounding Although the heart keeps on pounding A different kind of … Read more

Before I React

Image source: Photo by Maciej Sawicki on Unsplash More attention is what I seek Inside for myself Pain rooted so deeply in my consciousness I cannot breathe, I cannot even think Before I react Reactions bring pain Pain for myself and others I hopefully can breathe Tomorrow anew, a new dawn The curtains of hope will once again rise … Read more

A Battleground

Image source: Photo by Richard Lee on Unsplash Quite hard to succumb to the feeling or the idea of betrayal My body feels like a battleground And so has been my world The only thing that gives me some comfort The sweetness of sleep I will close my eyes Dream of better times Where people have a healthy respect … Read more

Like Spikes

Image source: Photo by Dan Hadfield on Unsplash Open kite A variety of rites Of passages Through the night Kindly reminded me What was once lost Can You see the way You feel? To others Pain strikes Like spikes They pierce the camouflage I saw You tonight Ian Altosaar

Nightstand’s Wheel

Image source: Photo by Toa Heftiba on Unsplash This pasty kid Took the lid From under the nightstand’s wheel Nifty was this kid Who took the lid From the nightstand’s wheel Guess who did? The dirty deed Of stealing the nightstand’s wheel So he kneeled Right before he felt Remorse for what he did A dire need Was coursing … Read more

Many Different

Image source: Photo by Cristian Newman on Unsplash Feelings Can’t describe them But we have to To make some sense of this Let’s take a kiss For example Many different variations of it They all feel very different When we stop and listen for a moment They all seem to evaporate Into nothingness There is not much to hang … Read more

A Sensitive

Image source: Photo by Mike Schrengohst on Unsplash How does it feel like? To live with this Incredibly deep passion for life and love Wanting to feel everything But not knowing how to express it all? Deep apologies are not enough Not knowing if I’m okay Is all this okay? Fully and deeply Superlatives in every way Being afraid … Read more