Before I React

Image source: Photo by Maciej Sawicki on Unsplash More attention is what I seek Inside for myself Pain rooted so deeply in my consciousness I cannot breathe, I cannot even think Before I react Reactions bring pain Pain for myself and others I hopefully can breathe Tomorrow anew, a new dawn The curtains of Read more…

The Desire To Grow

Image source: Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Unsplash The desire to go for the instant gratification or filling up the self is not actually bad. The place where it stings the most though is paradoxically the self again. What happens at that moment is the abandonment of the very essence of our being. This Read more…

Believing

Image source: Photo by Andre Gorham II on Unsplash Scared and vulnerable Emotions come and go A continuous flow Tightly knit The feeling of disappointment in my gut Somewhere so deeply Motions Explosions of energy Kindly pick up the stranger Lastly Say it proudly Believing so boldly Ian Altosaar

My Day

Image source: Photo by Dawid Zawiła on Unsplash Thoughts of the day They unravel as I am Unbelievably angry Or incredibly happy I see them, feel for them Some, full of pain Get noticed only when circumstances arise Others, enjoyable for quite some time Nothing more to say Just slowly pray before bed Hoping Read more…

Fucking Hell

Image source: Photo by Joshua Newton on Unsplash Fucking hell The discrepancy Between Myself and the world Where do I go from here? Where do I want to be? Be it so that all will be Golden Molded into being By the currents of life Quietly testing Your inner strength Pain flows from that Read more…

Fully Feeling

Image source: Photo by Dawid Zawiła on Unsplash A sharp pain twists and turns Silently under the surface How to keep my heart open in pain? A challenge for the brain Like a ripple from my back It moves, lures me into my depth There is no other way Now I must pray Seemingly Read more…

An Ode To Something

Image source: Photo by Matthew Kane on Unsplash What a strange place to be In the thick of it But feel not seen Pain emerges from these depths Nice to welcome it Together into the womb of being I’m saddened by the atrocity of it all In a peculiar sense Knowing that it will Read more…

The Sweetest of All

I say a silent prayer I can hear the whispers in the air They are near Loving me Guiding me, My dear Not knowing yet Feeling so much My heart, the sweetest of all touches Lays deep within Caressing my soul It’s time to let go Ian Altosaar

Listening

Image source: Photo by Uljana Maljutina on Unsplash It all starts with simple things Simple conversations Glances that last for a short second That can turn into A lifetime of joy, love and happiness The defining moments Of my life Have all started with something small A calling from within Turned into action on Read more…