The Difficult Energy Of Scorpio

One of the most difficult energies to deal with is the Scorpio energy. Wherever You have it in Your birth chart. Especially if it’s Your Sun, Moon or Ascendant. The conundrum of this energy is that at Your core (or subconsciously) You want to feel so, so deeply. And at the same time, You are … Read more

Fighting For Your Own Survival

Photo by Timothy Eberly on Unsplash Potential trigger warning for this post. It might bring up difficult feelings and emotions, thoughts. My intention for this post is not to make anyone uncomfortable. It is to help someone who is going through something I’ve gone through. As the title states, I’ve had to fight for my own survival. Not … Read more


What if God speaks through You And it’s You? What if everything is God speaking through You? But what happens when You don’t listen? What if it happens when You are alone? In Your room? When the darkness pulls down it’s curtain? What if the silence is what You actually desire and crave? What if … Read more

The Road To Recovery

As darkness tightens it’s grip It does seem only the tip Of the iceberg The road to recovery Seems too smothering I’m bothered by the sheer magnitude of it all If I must I just Sit at the cusp Ian Altosaar

Within The Blackness

Image source: Photo by Aperture Vintage on Unsplash As the pain from my heart Drips blood To Yours and mine Never knowing what life could be Only to see Disappointments I see the angles They are calling me Writes of passages Are taunting me To put it mildly Surrendering to pain Is the easiest and hardest thing I’ve ever … Read more

There Are Deeper Places

Image source: Photo by Jorge Garcia on Unsplash Rest assured This road has been an arduous one So much so I’m shaken to my very core There is so much darkness within the light That it surrounds me What to believe, where to seek? Only one true place for this to be There are deeper places A mixture of … Read more

The Hostess

Image source: Photo by Ross Sokolovski on Unsplash The transmission of transmissions Set in stone somewhere Deep behind a rock of silence Pushing towards it with all my might Searching for the light Deep within the darkness, I may find Some clear skies Timeless and free The falling arc of sunset Amidst the sweet darkness of my being A … Read more

Meeting With Darkness

Image source: Photo by Glenn Carstens-Peters on Unsplash Tired and lonely They only Seem like a facade Breaking the holy Ground beneath me Just sitting Sitting in the darkness That’s where the deepest of meetings happens The only thing left to do is break apart Look into The vast openness Thickness Pitch black darkness Soothing in a way The … Read more

Not Knowing

Image source: Photo by Laurice Manaligod on Unsplash Not knowing Myself was the greatest pain of them all Now looking into my eyes I see someone Who can be touched By mystery Love By heart By the moonlit sky and the stars Sometimes I still look from afar Only to be reminded by my own heart That life’s just … Read more


Image source: Sliding into the darkness I hear echoes of the past I feel them next to me So painful to hear Their voices so clear Scared of their touch I resist it so much I want to get to know them So I can rest in peace For eternity I feel so much light … Read more