Poetry

Everything That Used to Make Me Feel Alive Makes Me Feel Dead Inside

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/adult-alcohol-bar-bartender-274192/ Everything that used to make me feel alive Now makes me feel dead inside And then I realized It didn’t actually make me feel alive Just amplified the emptiness I felt inside It made me feel more of what was already there With no one to share, Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Windows

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/architecture-bridge-buildings-canal-534077/ I am my own companion Looking into windows Don’t know those people They seem to have a good time The pain rips through Self inflicted pain Ideas of how things should be Deemed bad by me Just sitting with myself now I’ve been down this road before Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Sit With My Fucking Soul

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/relaxation-sitting-reflection-statue-46177/ I’m sitting with my fucking soul I’m listening intently what I have to say I’m praying, praying for something I yet do not know I’m living in the unknown, the not knowing is enough to drive me mad It tingles underneath my skin I want to surrender Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

An Honorable Meeting

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/art-black-and-white-close-up-horse-415983/ As this day comes to a close I’m sitting with something Something that truly is inside me so I just want to sit with it Be with it, no fuss Just me and my presence Slowly finding our way to each other We bow to greet Honoring Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Heartfelt Desire

https://www.pexels.com/photo/mountain-surrounded-by-trees-with-snows-691569/ A yearning for coming together Calling, creeping under the surface The not knowing Is what kept it growing Coming into my own sovereign Means foraging in the depths of my being It involves clear seeing And deep feeling Heartfelt commitment To myself and others That will carry the torch Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Home

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astrology-astronomy-dark-night-376706/ Take a look closely now Or better yet, a silent bow To Your own life Carved out with the knife Over a long period of time The amount of sadness that road holds Is only surpassed by the joy when arriving home What’s so painfully obvious Is Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Wait For

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/ancient-architecture-building-castle-432812/ Sometimes There are no words Words just aren’t enough No one to sing You praises Only the sweetness of Your own tears Separating You from total despair And pure bliss I cannot speak I cannot feel Only what seems like an insurmountable amount of pain The access Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Loneliness

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/photography-of-night-sky-733475/ Loneliness Can be Your friend and ally Your silent confidant Or You can turn it into Your greatest foe It can be a source of pain And quiet desperation Or pure opening of Your heart In which ever way You choose Life will be there for You Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Raspberry Smoothies and Wine

Image source:¬†https://www.pexels.com/photo/rock-formation-with-grassfield-background-722016/ Life has a strange sense of paradox Written into its very core Pouring out of pure clarity in the midst of insanity Pain is a stepping stone To whatever follows next Is probably for the best Now is the time When true endings are mine Raspberry smoothies and Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

With You

Image source:¬†https://www.pexels.com/photo/person-couple-love-romantic-5302/ If I lay down with You Will You cry? If I share my stories with You Will You say goodbye? I hope there’s space for You by my side If I get angry with You Will You hide? If I break down and want safety with You Will Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago