Poetry

Losses

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/beach-clouds-dawn-dusk-262325/ Every loss affects us Big or small Material of physical The time it takes to move on Differs from moment to moment When the waves come crashing on to the shore All You can do is see what they have in store The flow of them will Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Wait For

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/ancient-architecture-building-castle-432812/ Sometimes There are no words Words just aren’t enough No one to sing You praises Only the sweetness of Your own tears Separating You from total despair And pure bliss I cannot speak I cannot feel Only what seems like an insurmountable amount of pain The access Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Dance of Life

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/snow-capped-mountain-under-cloudy-sky-711177/ The death of a moment can break Your heart It can remind You all that was And it’s gone Life on this planet can seem cruel With all the little deaths happening all at once Only when we have time to reflect upon them We can see life Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Articles

Fears, Meditation and Dying

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/photo-of-mountain-during-day-226366/ Recently I’ve been obsessed with death, dying of old parts of myself. There is a very simple reason for this. Dying of those parts, fears that have lived inside of me for so long has provided me with the freedom I’ve longed for such an extended period Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Blog

On Death

Image source: My private collection. Tallinn, Estonia. If You continue to look at death straight in it’s face You will break regardless If You happen to experience the bright side of life on some days In between this constant dying There might be periods of lighter existence But don’t be Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Kingdoms of Men

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, near Rakvere. When You allow the fullness of Your being Death becomes okay Now You have experienced everything You have ever wanted And all of Your hearts desires Are here I’m here Echoes in the chambers Of Your kingdom The prince is crowned Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

In the Presence of Grace

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, Obja village. During times of deep reflection and sadness There are only a few to count on To look and seek guidance from It was meant to be this way You were supposed to figure it out on Your own From the reflections Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Between the Two

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, Obja village. You see Young warrior Death and life are similar in a way All You can do is surrender to them both There is no other way Truths are written between the two You are complete now And so were those who Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Kingdom

Image source: My private collection. Gran Canaria, Spain. The perception Of a never ending cycle and feeling Can, in itself, be devastating Gut-wrenchingly heartbreaking I have no other way through it But through The mind builds castles and strongholds Facing them, being them, perceiving them Until I crumble and have Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Go on

Image source: My private collection. Gran Canaria, Maspalomas Dunes. Waiting for it Wanting it all Dazed, with clarity above all Mixture of emotions Sharpened by the mind I sometimes gaze upon death I feel it pierce through my veins Knowing that it will leave me Before the end of my Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago