A Slow Descend In The Suburbs

Photo by Behzad Soleimanian on Unsplash Have the yearsHave all the years of discontent and disappointmentDiminished Your love for me?Or is there still some left? Have my actions and inactionsCaused Your bitterness?The hurt I sense from YouSeems like an insurmountable wallThat is dividing our cause Has the mistrustYou carry aroundSmashed our love to the ground?I’ve foundPain, when suppressed, … Read more

Dead and Alive

Photo by Edgar Perez on Unsplash I’m dead and alive At the same timeSomething burning inside Lust, desire, turned divine More and moreHope transforms into GodLove and fiercenessSeem to melt into one Mornings are dark and hopeful stillUntilThe sun risesBlesses me with its disguises Wanting is still prevalent Ian Altosaar Get my new book here: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B081X34YK7 For … Read more

A Flower

Photo by Natalie Breeze on Unsplash There once was a flowerIt bloomedIt had natural beauty It was admired by allThen the season started to changeAnd the flower ended its bloom All the attentionIt was goneIt was fall Darkness grew its wingsTo reach us allNature witheredSo did the flower It tried to stand tallBut unable to deny nature’s callIt … Read more


Photo by Joshua Gresham on Unsplash No one can see my struggleIt would be too much troubleFor others to see my struggle To walk alone, with no one in the huddleThen all of a suddenWant people to see my struggle In the rubbleOf life, the eternal struggleDaily, solving this puzzle To be alone, to feel alone, it is … Read more

The Gift Of Your Sensitivity

Photo by Nicole Baster on Unsplash I’ve regarded this as a curse many timesI still do on occasion But I’ve learned to grow into itEven regard it as a gift Because it isIt is a rare gift to be in tune with the forces of this universe It is a marvel to feel nature flowing … Read more

Emotional And Plain

Photo by Jesse Gardner on Unsplash A tough dayEmotional and plainI find the quiet escapes meThese rows are the escape for me Maybe I’m just naiveYoung and in pain at heartCannot seem to shake my rocky startOr the heaviness I feel Let go and steerA clear pathway aheadMurky the streetsFull of lead Ian Altosaar Get … Read more


Photo by Yuris Alhumaydy on Unsplash What if the pain You feelIs not Yours?But You feel it anyway The rays of what life should be likeDescend upon Your mindIf Your life is different than You imaginedThen You will feel painUntil You accept the truth of what is The truth of what is Is here to liberate … Read more

The TRUTH Of Which Is You

Photo by Robin Benad on Unsplash Is there a desire?To get something?To get somewhere?To be somebody?Maybe life hasn’t taught You wellBecause You are already somebodySomewhereDoes this ring a bell?In Your quest to become more special and successful You have forgotten the deepest place within Yourself that already knows, You are especially not specialYou are made of stardust that … Read more

The Meaning Book

https://pixabay.com/photos/hooded-man-mystery-scary-hood-2580085/ I started writing The Meaning Book in 2015, without knowing I was writing it. It was just something I enjoyed doing. The words came out, I was just there. It also helped me through a difficult time in my life. A dark time emotionally. Getting over a break-up with a woman I cared about … Read more

Hope For The World To End

Photo by Edu Lauton on Unsplash I hate that women can control me with sex I hate that I control women with my love I strongly dislike the fact that every interaction in this capitalistic society is built upon having leverage over others I hate that we have become empty shells of human beings Whose lives are geared … Read more