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I Wonder

I wonder If I ponder enough Will there be one? Sometimes I hope for some But knowing life It all must conclude I’ve sought out solitude For all the craziness that I found Shaken and scared You look at humans I feel sad for them A life lived so meaninglessly Note that I myself can … Read more

The Man

For a while, I’ve been feeling like I’m not the man I’m supposed to be. And not by society’s standards, by my own understanding. I’ve been living a lie to some extent. The clothes that I wear make no sense anymore. The work I do feels unfulfilling. The way I show up in my relationships … Read more

Cycles Of Life

There are times in life where everything seems to be reassessed. Things, people, careers, time in general even. These are confusing days, months, on occasion years. We listen but we don’t speak. We cry but the tears do not fall from our eyes. Only kind strangers and friends seem to make sense. Sometimes not even … Read more

Go

Always a lone dog Not understood by the peers Fears that them not seeing me Means I’m not good enough Wanting to be appreciated But knowing this will lead to even more suffering The smothering of what once was Speaks in silence Suddenly, I seek to find Peace and quiet, of the mind A sign, … Read more

What is My life?

What is my life? What have I become? Do I even remember the Sun? Unraveling, coming undone Whose life am I living? It isn’t a gift that keeps on giving What is this voice that keeps on singing? How do I quiet the ringing in my mind? Who are these ghosts? Haunting shadows of my … Read more

Pluto’s Negative and Positive Manifestations and Being the Ruler of Scorpio

Image source: Photo by Alexander Andrews on Unsplash Most astrologer’s credit Mars with the rulership of the sign Scorpio. In my experiences with my own life and observing the lives of others, I can now see that it’s actually Pluto who rules the sign Scorpio. Or the constellation of Scorpio if You wish. About Pluto’s energy. The energy of … Read more

Sit

So You sit there Without a care But something does not really sit well Your mind does it’s best not to dwell But can’t really tell the difference Between light and dark Future, past, and present They seem to melt into one You must come undone See it for what it is Learn, You have … Read more

10 Years

What would You do if You knew that You have exactly 10 years to live from this moment onwards? Would You do something differently? Would You change Your life entirely? Would You do something dramatic? Or would You go crazy and party the next 10 years? What would it be? Would You even change anything? … Read more

A Description Of Despair

Image source: Photo by Maciej Sawicki on Unsplash When You feel meaningless The world has no meaning also Taste for life itself has gone Holding on for dear life Hoping that there’s still a meaning for it all Bitterness takes control The towers fall and the kingdom will soon follow Insanity has been made normal … Read more