Lineage energies

Image source: https://w-dog.net/wallpaper/nature-green-grass-old-tree-scenery-view-thunder-clouds-sky-picture-nature-grass-tree-sky-storm-clouds/id/299519/ I want to talk about something I’ve been watching lately in my own life and the lives of others. Lineage energies. What do I define as lineage energies? Energies that have been in a specific family’s dynamics for generations. I’ll give You a couple of examples. Let’s Read more…

The Fight Between The Masculine and The Feminine

Image source: http://www.tantrikstudies.org/blog/2016/5/25/the-dangers-of-duality-recognition-sutra-6 Something I’ve been observing lately within myself and it’s reflected back to me fiercely in outer circumstances. The fight between the masculine and feminine energies. Men fighting men, men fighting women, women fighting women etc. A lot of conflict has happened during the past few months. It’s Read more…

Does It Really Matter?

Image source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEJbDIwTKNM Today is a day to feel empty, to be comfortable with the knowing that it sometimes really doesn’t matter.  And we are the ones who make it matter, in our minds. In our wild stories of success and happiness.  Meaning, depth, memories, rules, stories. Some describe this Read more…

Values

Image source: http://joakimolofsson.deviantart.com/ This has been boiling inside of me for a long time. I do not yet know what’s the real reason I’m writing this but I feel it needs to be done. I came across an article in my home country of Estonia, where the president of our Read more…

Connection

Image source: This is me. With and without My bullshit.   As I’m discovering a deeper connection with Myself it’s becoming clearer to me that I madly yearn for connection. Deep soul connection. The yearning is almost unbearable. It’s like something is constantly crawling under Your skin and You want Read more…

My Desire

Image source: http://www.newsnish.com/tips/health-tips/seven-types-of-love-you-might-experience-in-your-life/ I’m sitting by the fireplace at my families country home. Journaling. Journaling about a specific topic this time. My desire. My desire with women and life in general. When I was first introduced to this exercise the first thing that came up was “I don’t know”. Mostly Read more…

The burning of the yearning

Image source: https://www.chicagocostume.com/spiders-spider-webs/ Have You ever felt yearning for someone or something? I have. It feels like something outside of You is pulling You towards that thing/person/situation and at the same time You really don’t have a chance to get it. Lot of stories come up. Why is this like Read more…

Sitting here

Image source: Kalamaja beach, taken couple of months back during sunset. I’m just sitting here, pondering what to write about. I’m feeling almost okay today or more upbeat than usual. If You’re feeling a bit down then the creative juices start flowing and everything is more dramatic. Obviously it’s like Read more…

In The Trenches

Image source: My families farmhouse in Ida-Virumaa, Estonia. Taken during sunset last summer. When You feel like crap or are depressed it’s like someone or something has pulled a grey veil over Your eyes. Everything seems pointless. I have no apparent reason to feel like this but I do. I’ve Read more…