Image source: Photo by Fancycrave from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/accessory-bobbin-close-up-clothing-355148/ Remembering the feelings I wanted to have, sad But with faith I stand here I’ve failed, been made Staged a comeback Without having the faintest idea I’m already part of a tale That’s bigger than me It is me, see I’ve been called names Sailed the emotional … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/adult-alcohol-bar-bartender-274192/ Everything that used to make me feel alive Now makes me feel dead inside And then I realized It didn’t actually make me feel alive Just amplified the emptiness I felt inside It made me feel more of what was already there With no one to share, the gifts that felt so … Read more
https://www.pexels.com/photo/mountain-surrounded-by-trees-with-snows-691569/ A yearning for coming together Calling, creeping under the surface The not knowing Is what kept it growing Coming into my own sovereign Means foraging in the depths of my being It involves clear seeing And deep feeling Heartfelt commitment To myself and others That will carry the torch When my mind crumbles under … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astrology-astronomy-dark-night-376706/ Take a look closely now Or better yet, a silent bow To Your own life Carved out with the knife Over a long period of time The amount of sadness that road holds Is only surpassed by the joy when arriving home What’s so painfully obvious Is that this thing I call … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/person-holding-magnifying-glass-712786/ I have a confession to make. I want attention. A huge part of that desire or want is the simple equation attention = money. Or at least that’s how to perceive it. If You have other people’s attention it’s easier to make money. Wanting attention itself is not a bad thing. It is … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/snow-capped-mountain-under-cloudy-sky-711177/ The death of a moment can break Your heart It can remind You all that was And it’s gone Life on this planet can seem cruel With all the little deaths happening all at once Only when we have time to reflect upon them We can see life in it as well All … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/backlit-beautiful-clouds-color-392091/ My life for the last five years has been constant death with small windows of life in between deaths. This has been at the same time one of the most hardest and most beautiful times of my life. Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/backlit-beautiful-clouds-color-392091/ I’ve lost many people, they have died or left or I … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/astronomy-beautiful-clouds-constellation-355465/ What troubles Your soul? The belonging Of which You have known Growing Although not complete Is a journey Towards discovery, forever Incomplete Dear God Look into my eyes and see The strength and perseverance I am a good boy, You must see Torn still by the temptress of gold Becoming holy, why … Read more
Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/photo-of-mountain-during-day-226366/ Recently I’ve been obsessed with death, dying of old parts of myself. There is a very simple reason for this. Dying of those parts, fears that have lived inside of me for so long has provided me with the freedom I’ve longed for such an extended period of time. In a way … Read more
Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Kumna village, near Keila. Everything that I’ve ever written I have written for myself Every poem, all the teachings They are for me It’s very selfish You see I’m learning as I go here It’s trial and error Pain and joy Disbelief and hope And everything in between My … Read more