Poetry

I Rise

Image source: Photo by Matheus Bertelli from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/astronomy-constellation-cosmos-dark-577582/ It doesn’t really matter Knowing pain is knowing Yourself Why do I choose this? Because it’s sweeter than a woman’s kiss What’s real anymore? Who can I trust? Right on the cusp Standing as I must Believe, believe in Yourself Quiet Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Breath

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/close-up-of-candle-over-black-background-333515/ It made the candle lit room silent His breath was heavy and deep Mustered up from the depths of his soul He was growing old Something or someone seemed to be nagging at him Something he couldn’t yet touch Something old was about to leave What, that Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Firmest of Hearts

Image source: Photo by Jakob from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/mountain-under-starry-sky-during-nighttime-761394/ There are times that it will hurt like hell The mind likes to dwell To ring the bell of doubt But thankfully there is a way out Knowing that will lead You down south Where the warm breeze Is equaled by the Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Everything That Used to Make Me Feel Alive Makes Me Feel Dead Inside

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/adult-alcohol-bar-bartender-274192/ Everything that used to make me feel alive Now makes me feel dead inside And then I realized It didn’t actually make me feel alive Just amplified the emptiness I felt inside It made me feel more of what was already there With no one to share, Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Sit With My Fucking Soul

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/relaxation-sitting-reflection-statue-46177/ I’m sitting with my fucking soul I’m listening intently what I have to say I’m praying, praying for something I yet do not know I’m living in the unknown, the not knowing is enough to drive me mad It tingles underneath my skin I want to surrender Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

An Honorable Meeting

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/art-black-and-white-close-up-horse-415983/ As this day comes to a close I’m sitting with something Something that truly is inside me so I just want to sit with it Be with it, no fuss Just me and my presence Slowly finding our way to each other We bow to greet Honoring Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Wait For

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/ancient-architecture-building-castle-432812/ Sometimes There are no words Words just aren’t enough No one to sing You praises Only the sweetness of Your own tears Separating You from total despair And pure bliss I cannot speak I cannot feel Only what seems like an insurmountable amount of pain The access Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Looking at Pain

Image source: https://www.pexels.com/photo/landscape-photography-of-mountains-covered-in-snow-691668/ The way we deal with pain must change It just has to when we want to become more whole, mature human beings There’s a great probability that all of us in different moments in our lives will experience This type of deep longing, sadness or even emptiness Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Articles

It’s not the way that I want it. It’s just the way that I need it. Day after day.

Image source: My private collection. The view outside when I woke up today. As I woke up today these words with a certain melody were going through my head “It’s not the way that I want it. It’s just the way that I need it. Day after day.” I couldn’t Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Blog

On Death

Image source: My private collection. Tallinn, Estonia. If You continue to look at death straight in it’s face You will break regardless If You happen to experience the bright side of life on some days In between this constant dying There might be periods of lighter existence But don’t be Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago