The Cosmic Adults Season 1 Episode 2 TEASER!

Confused about life and Your sensitivity? Curious about what energy is and how we can use it? Or even asking more practical things like, why do I feel like this during this specific day? And totally different during others? We started the Cosmic Adults podcast with my good friend Mercedes to answer all of those … Read more

How past fears mindfuck Scorpios from doing the things they actually want?

I just can’t stop making videos about Scorpios and their pain. I can’t stop, I won’t stop… The inspiration behind this video was in an interaction I had with a person under my video’s comments. Tired of endless transformation? Past “failures” have a hold on You? Think everything is going to come crashing down again? … Read more

Material Possessions and Defining Yourself Through Them – Scorpio stellium (with Venus)

A person came to me scared about their material things/possessions. It had gotten so bad that they didn’t want to have people over because they were afraid that they will abuse their apartment and valuables. And they will get broken = lose it’s value. They were also yelling and screaming at their spouse because whenever … Read more

“No good men/women out there!” — How Your lack mentality from childhood is creating Your reality

Wanted to record this video for a while now. Finally had the chance, even had to stop the car because the inspiration hit me hard. I see this a lot with men and women, complaining about the opposite sex. When very often it’s actually the judgments and experiences from childhood that are keeping (and have … Read more

The Difficult Energy Of Scorpio

One of the most difficult energies to deal with is the Scorpio energy. Wherever You have it in Your birth chart. Especially if it’s Your Sun, Moon or Ascendant. The conundrum of this energy is that at Your core (or subconsciously) You want to feel so, so deeply. And at the same time, You are … Read more

Before I React

Image source: Photo by Maciej Sawicki on Unsplash More attention is what I seek Inside for myself Pain rooted so deeply in my consciousness I cannot breathe, I cannot even think Before I react Reactions bring pain Pain for myself and others I hopefully can breathe Tomorrow anew, a new dawn The curtains of hope will once again rise … Read more

The Desire To Grow

Image source: Photo by Jeremy Bishop on Unsplash The desire to go for the instant gratification or filling up the self is not actually bad. The place where it stings the most though is paradoxically the self again. What happens at that moment is the abandonment of the very essence of our being. This will hurt in the long … Read more

Believing

Image source: Photo by Andre Gorham II on Unsplash Scared and vulnerable Emotions come and go A continuous flow Tightly knit The feeling of disappointment in my gut Somewhere so deeply Motions Explosions of energy Kindly pick up the stranger Lastly Say it proudly Believing so boldly Ian Altosaar

My Day

Image source: Photo by Dawid Zawiła on Unsplash Thoughts of the day They unravel as I am Unbelievably angry Or incredibly happy I see them, feel for them Some, full of pain Get noticed only when circumstances arise Others, enjoyable for quite some time Nothing more to say Just slowly pray before bed Hoping Tomorrow will be somewhat of … Read more