Articles

It’s not the way that I want it. It’s just the way that I need it. Day after day.

Image source: My private collection. The view outside when I woke up today. As I woke up today these words with a certain melody were going through my head “It’s not the way that I want it. It’s just the way that I need it. Day after day.” I couldn’t Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Blog

On Death

Image source: My private collection. Tallinn, Estonia. If You continue to look at death straight in it’s face You will break regardless If You happen to experience the bright side of life on some days In between this constant dying There might be periods of lighter existence But don’t be Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Blog

A Journey Through

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, Obja village. There is always light within the dark But sometimes we as humans succumb to the darker parts of creation Sometimes the pain we feel or experience is so great The road through seems desperately far This is where a strong developed Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Internal

Image source: My private collection. Somewhere near Viljandi, Estonia. To be internally grateful Adds meaning to this life To find some of that meaning outside of Yourself A dark red cherry on top of a cake Finding something or someone to relate to Can often take time And what at Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

New

Image source: My private collection. Somewhere near Viljandi, Estonia. It is in the newness where the soul resides It awaits, longing for the return of the king Or queen Unfortunately It is always searching Grasping for new realms Not yet created It has always been like this We are born Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

Real Worth

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, Obja village. Sometimes we want someone to embrace our shadows Before we have done it ourselves Sometimes the line between light and dark Gets blurry And we don’t know what to do We want someone to hold us And carry us through To Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

The Second Day

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa Obja village. It’s the second day And I feel okay Lead into wholeness In a different way Such completion Is found inside In the quiet corners of the mind Tranquility sinks deeper into My being, a gift truly worth feeling Even the drops Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Podcast

Ask Ian Episode 2

Second episode of the Ask Ian show. This one is about emotional processing and digging deeper to find ease in simplicity. Enjoy! Ian

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

In My Sweetest of Souls

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, Obja village. The loneliness I feel Sometimes does feel real The mind wants to deal A different hand, eagerly Desiring a solution But nothing can take this away from me Anything I have ever tasted Slept with Done Accomplished Or filled myself up Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago
Poetry

An Inside Game

Image source: My private collection. Estonia, Lääne-Virumaa, Obja village. Sometimes the words are hidden behind the surface Quiet waiting game with the world itself Days are different Like night and day My inside experience Has a mind of it’s own What’s do be done here Just wait for clarity to Read more…

By ianaltosaar, ago